it's over

i'm home now. feeling damn empty.
i might be going to space. mos or to pavilion for movies.
my exams are over. for the tyme being laaa.
n merdeka eve's 2moro. *yay!
partayyy.

k lah over and out.
XX

law.

i'm gonna haff law exam in... a few hours.
so many sections to remember and all them case lawss...
i salute those doing law. jean. all the way.
this paper is one helll of a boring subject andd to do this. you gotta haff. 101% of focus and determination.
k. enuff said.
i didnt wanna study so i came online but i think eneryone's still kindda sleeping or in college. cos no one appears to be online.
merdeka eve's coming. another excuse to party.
i just cant wait til friday when it'll all be over. @ least for a day or 2.

i neeed 50% to pass my papers.
wtf right. damn high standard.
apparently. the passing mark gets higher according to the level.
so now yall readers kno y zen damn NO life lahhh.
it's been college-> gym -> home for quite sometime now.
haihyoooo. i wish i can just chiiilll .. like the old tymes in KDU.
effortless A's.. and damn guud social lifee.

screw ACCA. for those who are thinking to do this.
PLS. reconsider 10 times.
cos it means. sacrificing alot.
and trust me when i say alot.
unless u dont wanna pass all papers in one goal and wanna retain for like 3-4 yrs or retake one papers for like 10 times laa.

k lah i gtg now to study my law.
i'm aiming 30. wish me luck.
whoever gets lower than that get barred.
and the management is serious this time. cos apparently their platinum status for achieving damn good students is at stake.

word of advice. for those who like to party damn hard and kenot sit still.
cos damn restless all the time. dont do this course.
you'll feel like me all the time. which sucks.

for those who like to over analyse stuff.
dont take this course oso.
cos you wont be able to analyse enough.

k for those who like colours and study with pictures.
dont take this course cos the books are only black n white and seriously damn dull.

for those who cant focus in class. dont do this course.
cos the lecturer talk none stop for 2 hrs then break 10mins.
if you miss out the stuffs. you wont b able to catch up.

for those after SPM thinking to do pre-ACCA (CAT).
make sure you think twice oso.
cos. CAT is = harder then degree.
quoted my lecturer.

k. sekian saje.
when i wanna whine bout stuff i'll come back on.
stay tune.

zenny.

eh. i seriously wanna be a nerd.

K. i'm kindda sick being not able to study.
I wanna letak all my affort but somehow there's always that something else there's better to do.
I told alot of ppl many times that eh. i'm gonna study now. like seriously from this day on and bla bla.
omg. it's like having to diet. it applies. same case la. telling ppl then dont do.
Now right.
i have Law,Tax and Costing to worry about. But my head always cockblock these subjects.
It's like some no entry restricted kindda thing.
So. seriously i dunnno what to do .
Haihyo. Damn stress lah. Serious.
I wanna cry oso kenot. cos like damn sissyfied right.
Wanna laugh all the way oso kenot cos. kiasu later in the end runtuh.
Ma-Fuck. kenot switch course oso. Register already MAHHH.
Haihyo. I'm such a whinner lah. Like kenot deal with stuff have to blog.
If your reading you obviously more no life than me laaaa.
So in a way i WIN! HAHA!
K lah. gotta somehow do LAW now.
I have test next week.

Ciao LanJiao.
Bye Cheebye.

XX.

inspirational.

Beyoncé: The heart is stronger Than you think It's like it can go Through anythingAnd even when you think It can't it finds a way To still push on Though

Carrie Underwood: Sometimes You want to run away Ain't got the patience For the pain And if you Don't believe it Look into Your heart The beat goes on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus: Things get better Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall Dust it off Don't let up Sheryl Crow: Don't you know You can go Be your own miracle

Beyoncé: You need to know

Chorus (Sheryl Crow): If the mind Keeps thinking You've had enough But the heart Keeps telling you Don't give up

Sheryl Crow/Beyoncé: Who are we to beQuestioning Wondering what is what Don't give upThrough it all Just stand up

Fergie: It's like We all have better days Problems getting all up In your face

Leona Lewis: Just because You go through it Fergie: Don't mean it got To take control, no

Leona Lewis: You ain't gotta find No hiding place

Keyshia Cole: Because the heart Can beat the hate

Leona Lewis: Don't wanna Let your mind Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole: And sayin' you Can't go on Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Miley Cyrus: Things get better Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall

Miley Cyrus: Dust if off Don't let up

LeAnn Rimes: Don't you know you

Bedingfield: Can go

LeAnn Rimes: Be your own

Natasha Bedingfield: Miracle

Carrie Underwood: You need to know (Chorus-All)

Mary J. Blige: You don't gotta be A prisoner In your mind

Ciara: If you fall Dust it off

Mary J. Blige: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood: Yeah

Mary J. Blige: Let your heart Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey: And you will know That you're good If you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything Will be alright, yeah Light up the dark If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige: And it will get better

Mariah Carey: Through whatever (Chorus-All)

Fergie: You got it in you Find it within You got in now Find it within now You got in you Find it within You got in now Find it within now You got in you Ffind it within Find it within you Find it within

10 Various Artist team up for this song-Just Stand Up.
It's inspirational.

my hatred so much covered my happiness. it sux.

i graduated. *yay but not quite.

i'm just looking forward to penang with mr best friend(kum) , cutetard(xiera) and her roomie(thang).

i so much thank god i have people like them in my life now.
people who would just laugh at your jokes and not get over sensitive of your sayings.
cos they kno thats how i roll.

i'm so heart broken for the fact that my dearest ever, do not at all understand me. and how i roll. and for being mad at me for that wrong reason.
apologize and apology accepted but none for me.
why the fuck wd anyone cares bout how i feel right.
who the fuck am i?
she might be thinking the same. *yyaa. who the fuck's zen*.
dont need to care laa.

*sigh*. i never like ppl feeling sad. therefore i'm always there for those who needds me.
but when it comes to being happy myself now. i just forgotten how it feels like.
i'm not happy at all in my life.
i'm sick of being told AT. not just in the house but in college now as well. by a ver own friend.
i so much wanna just leave. leave and never come back.
after all . what do i haff to loose.
who will be missing me. i dun noe.. i dont know.

i'm so dark lately. i therefore choose not to blog. but it so needs a lil update.
my social's lifes gonna be OFF for awhile as my test is next week.
i'll be updating on penang after that.

til then,
zen.

i HATE THAT BITCH!!!

I HATE THIS FUCKING SLUT IN COLLEGE!
SHE'S A FUCKING FAKE ASS TRYING SO HARD TO BE NICE .
SHE SO MUCH KEEPS EVERY SINGLE DETAIL OF HATRED IN HER HEART/.
SH CANT LET GO OF THE FACT THAT PEOPLE ONCE TOLD HER OFF. SHE HAVE TO IN SOMEWAY ALL THE WAY WHENEVER SHE CAN. FUCKING ATTACK YOU. ESPECIALLY DURING YOUR WEEKEST MOMENT.
SHE LIKES TO MAKE AS THO SHE'S IN THE RIGHT BY SAYING SHE WAS MERELY GIVING ADVICE TO YOU. BY TELLING YOU OFF IN FRONT OF A CROWD AND BY MAKING YU FEEL LIKE CRAP AND SHE EXPECTS EVERYTHING TO BE FINE.
SHE CLAIMS SHE CARES BOUT YOU THATS Y SHE'S VOICING OUT.
BUT THATS NOT THE WAY TO CARE.
IF YOU WANNA CARE. YOU DRAG THE CASULTY BY THE SIDE AND HAFF A LIL ONE ON ONE WITH THEM. NOT EMBARASS THEM IN FRONTTA THEIR FRIENDS.
IT'S SO OBVIOUS SHE WAS TRYING O GET BACK AT ME.
SHE'S A CUNNING BITCH.
THAT'S THE WAY SHE WORKS.
SHE SO DESERVE A MARK ON HER FACE.
I FUCKING HATE HER.
I HATE EVEN KNOWING HER AND IT MAKES ME SICK THAT I AM NICE TO HER.
I OFFICIALLY DNT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER FROM THIS VERY MOMENT.
AND THE FACT THAT SHE CALLS UP MY FRENS ONE BY ONE FOR BUSINESS OPPRTUNITY.
WAIT TIL THEY HEAR BOUT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT HER.
NO WAY THEY'RE GONNA BE TRICKED BY YOU. FUCK. SO FUCK OFF MY FRIENDS LIFE.

FUCK I HATE HER! FUCKING CHINESE SCHOOL AD.
I HATE HER. I HATE THAT I WS NICE TO HER.
I HATE THAT SHE USED TO BE CLOSE TO ME.
I HATE SO MUCH OF THE FACT THAT SHE'S HER.
SHE' SO FAKE SHE'S WORST THAT PAMELA ANDERSON'S BOOBS.
I'M GONNA FUCKING SLAP HER COCK SUCKLING FACE THE NEXT TME SHE TALK AT ME.
I'M GONNA SLAP HER SO HARD. SHE COULD FEEL HER FAKE SKULL FALLING APART.
I HATE HER SO MUCH EVEYTIME I SEE HER. I WANNA PEE ON HER FACE.
FUCK I HATE THE CRAP OUTTA HER CUNNING SELF.
I FUCKING HATE HEERRRRRRRR!!!!!
AND WHAT'S THE DEAL WITH MISTER I THINK I SHOULD GET INTO THIS SITUATION.
FUCK OFF. N MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
I'M SO DONE WITH HOW THIS WHOLE CHINESE PPL WORK.
FUCK. I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH THESE CHINESE ATTITUDE.
OMG.. I SO WANNA SMACK THAT FUCKING FACE!!! aargghh!!!
FUCKING CUNT.

=(

everythings just not going the way i want it to be.
i'm so down!
and results coming on monday.
i'm afraid.
it's as tho all the bad feelings attacking me @ once. FAST!
......

i need a break. from everything.

hot spring/cold spring.

After the visit to the org asli's, We wentta to the hot and cold spring for some fun.
We stuck our feet in a 60" hot water.
IN some part of the place where the water temperature were higher, eggs were allowed to be boiled. =.=''

OFF we wentta to cold spring to chill ourselves down.
Dr dillip with the white hairy chest.He's 60!!
Aunt Rita relaxing to the max.

Wonderful family day. =)

Your Truly,

Zen.

lawat-melawat original people.

Last week, Aku telah melawat lawat ke tempat orang original.
Saya telah menjadi humanitarian overnight kerana teringin ingin menjadi seperti brat pitt dan angelina the tatoo banyak.
Tempat ini berada di perak ,trolak.
pada kira kira 8 pagi, 20 kereta telah berconvoy ke tempat org ori untuk lawatan sambil belajar.

Here are some gambars.
penghulu mengajar cara org asli gosok gigi.
Hadiah hari jadi saya!
ibu nak show off highlights baru. show off handbag pulak.
aku dan hadiah hadiah ku.
tempat chilling menilling kanak kanak original.

shuffling clan original.
orang tua, saya, dan org asli.
mat rempit akan datang.
mereka yg melawat lawat .

adikku yang teringat dirinya high class telah meninggalkan opprtunity untuk berlagak semacam bratt pitt dan perempuan sexy dgn tattoo.

kk cut the crap. this is where some of the org asli's live.

i've gone visiting with a bunch of humanitarian during the weekends and there'll be more event to come.

We take and take in the society sometimes it's time turn to give.

My mama taught me well by bringing me to places as such for charity and so..

This taught me to be more humble and down to earth and willing to give after taking and taking.

I hope yall out there are doing some charitable work too.

yours truly,

zen.

random saturday night. drink drank drunk.